{"id":2308,"date":"2018-11-26T05:00:45","date_gmt":"2018-11-26T03:00:45","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/www.astra.formas.fi\/dammenbrister\/?p=2308"},"modified":"2018-11-25T22:34:56","modified_gmt":"2018-11-25T20:34:56","slug":"vittnesmal-nummer-50","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.astra.formas.fi\/dammenbrister\/2018\/11\/26\/vittnesmal-nummer-50\/","title":{"rendered":"Vittnesm\u00e5l nummer 50"},"content":{"rendered":"<p class=\"p1\"><span class=\"s1\">Jag \u00f6nskar att jag kunde ber\u00e4tta. Men jag kan inte m\u00f6ta k\u00e4nslan av hj\u00e4lpl\u00f6shet. Jag k\u00e4nner mig tillintetgjord. Jag blir kall och kallsvettig, t\u00e5rarna stiger. Jag sk\u00e4ms &#8211; kanske f\u00f6r att de jag anf\u00f6rtrodde mig \u00e5t f\u00f6rd\u00f6mde det som h\u00e4nt, men l\u00e4t f\u00f6rst\u00e5 att jag ocks\u00e5 hade mig sj\u00e4lv att skylla. Och jag var s\u00e5 ung och s\u00e5 sk\u00e4rrad att jag inte kunde v\u00e4rja mig mot deras insinuationer. Kanske jag ocks\u00e5 f\u00f6redrog att ta p\u00e5 mig skulden framom att acceptera att det som h\u00e4nde var utanf\u00f6r min kontroll. Nu i efterhand t\u00e4nker jag att skuldbel\u00e4ggandet kanske syftade till att sopa h\u00e4ndelsen under mattan &#8211; att skammen skulle hindra mig fr\u00e5n att n\u00e5gonsin prata om det. Och det funkade ju &#8211; jag kan fortfarande inte prata om det.<\/span><\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>Jag \u00f6nskar att jag kunde ber\u00e4tta. Men jag kan inte m\u00f6ta k\u00e4nslan av hj\u00e4lpl\u00f6shet. Jag k\u00e4nner mig tillintetgjord. Jag blir kall och kallsvettig, t\u00e5rarna stiger. Jag sk\u00e4ms &#8211; kanske f\u00f6r att de jag anf\u00f6rtrodde mig \u00e5t f\u00f6rd\u00f6mde det som h\u00e4nt, men l\u00e4t f\u00f6rst\u00e5 att jag ocks\u00e5 hade mig sj\u00e4lv att skylla. Och jag var s\u00e5&hellip; <\/p>\n<p class=\"toivo-read-more\"><a href=\"https:\/\/www.astra.formas.fi\/dammenbrister\/2018\/11\/26\/vittnesmal-nummer-50\/\" class=\"more-link\">Read more <span class=\"screen-reader-text\">Vittnesm\u00e5l nummer 50<\/span><\/a><\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":11,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"closed","ping_status":"closed","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"episode_type":"","audio_file":"","cover_image":"","cover_image_id":"","duration":"","filesize":"","date_recorded":"","explicit":"","block":"","filesize_raw":"","footnotes":""},"categories":[1],"tags":[],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.astra.formas.fi\/dammenbrister\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/2308"}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.astra.formas.fi\/dammenbrister\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.astra.formas.fi\/dammenbrister\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.astra.formas.fi\/dammenbrister\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/11"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.astra.formas.fi\/dammenbrister\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=2308"}],"version-history":[{"count":1,"href":"https:\/\/www.astra.formas.fi\/dammenbrister\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/2308\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":2311,"href":"https:\/\/www.astra.formas.fi\/dammenbrister\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/2308\/revisions\/2311"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.astra.formas.fi\/dammenbrister\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=2308"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.astra.formas.fi\/dammenbrister\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=2308"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.astra.formas.fi\/dammenbrister\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=2308"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}